Yesterday was a day that brought a lot of worries to the surface... While driving to work, I mulled over each worry and voiced all the feelings I was having because of them. There was quite a lot of self-talk and trying to move bast the negativity I was directing toward myself. It's a constant struggle. *shrug* Anyway, I realized that a great deal of my worries could be alieviated by finding balance. For example, I love crafting and I hate washing dishes. So when I get off work, my first desire is to come home and make something... not clean the kitchen. The problem with that is the kitchen needs cleaning... and that shouldn't be avoided.
I need to make a plan.
There has to be a way to balance what must be done with what wants to be done. I think I'm going to try going back to scheduling my days to make sure that all the must do's get a time slot. At least until I can cultivate new habits.
I want to be that awesome wife who handles everything on the homefront beautifully. I want to develop good habits for when we expand our family. I want to be prepared. I want to be a solid-footed adult, not an overwhelmed imbalanced one.
Adulting is hard... but there's not really another option at this point ^.^