So it kinda sucks for this to be the first post of 2015, but it is what it is.
Last week I had an interview for a company that does benefits administration. I did all the recommended reading about the company and asked my brother-in-law to give me his perspective of working there. I went over the practice questions the recruiter provided. I refreshed myself on my past call center experiences. I prayed. I got there early. I was personable and engaging. I answered all the questions thoroughly. I gave firm handshakes and good eye contact. I asked follow up questions relevant to the business and policies. I felt good afterward.
Buuuut... I got an email this morning saying, "after careful evaluation of your qualifications, we have decided that our current opportunities will now effectively utilize your skills and background." It really sucked to see that as I started my day.
I'm really glad that when I woke up this morning, I had a little conversation with God about helping me stay on top of my anxiety (which has been threatening to flare up recently). Then I did an hour of yoga. During that time I meditated and focused on aligning my chakras and calming my mind. After practicing, I had breakfast and a nice cup of green tea.
Then my peaceful state was shaken by that email. After reading it and resisting the urge to cry/crawl back under the covers I started thinking "what's the lesson"?? I mean, there has to be a lesson or some point to any struggles that God allows you to go through. So I'm sitting here, watching Tia & Tamera trying to figure out what the lesson could possibly be.
So far... I have..
- Maybe He's trying to get me to focus on working for Him more than to better my current financial situation. Maybe I need to look for employment that will allow me to be more Christ centered.
- Maybe He's trying to tell me that He is going to provide for my needs. I've been looking for a new job so that I can make more money so that Lamar and I can move to our first place. I've been taking a lot of responsibility to do that on myself. Maybe God is saying 'remember Philippians 4:19'...
And my God will liberally supply (fill to the full) your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
- Maybe He's just saying find a way to enjoy this time of ease. Use it to do other things. You're picking up more interest in your handmade goods. Use this time as a gift.
That's all I've got. I am feeling better after thinking of these lessons. Please keep me in prayer while I continue pondering what lessons I can learn from these setbacks.
Oh! Happy new year :) *chuckle*