What's the Lesson?

So it kinda sucks for this to be the first post of 2015, but it is what it is.

Last week I had an interview for a company that does benefits administration.  I did all the recommended reading about the company and asked my brother-in-law to give me his perspective of working there.  I went over the practice questions the recruiter provided.  I refreshed myself on my past call center experiences.  I prayed.  I got there early.  I was personable and engaging.  I answered all the questions thoroughly.  I gave firm handshakes and good eye contact.  I asked follow up questions relevant to the business and policies.  I felt good afterward.

Buuuut... I got an email this morning saying, "after careful evaluation of your qualifications, we have decided that our current opportunities will now effectively utilize your skills and background."  It really sucked to see that as I started my day.

I'm really glad that when I woke up this morning, I had a little conversation with God about helping me stay on top of my anxiety (which has been threatening to flare up recently).  Then I did an hour of yoga.  During that time I meditated and focused on aligning my chakras and calming my mind.  After practicing, I had breakfast and a nice cup of green tea.

Then my peaceful state was shaken by that email.  After reading it and resisting the urge to cry/crawl back under the covers I started thinking "what's the lesson"??  I mean, there has to be a lesson or some point to any struggles that God allows you to go through.  So I'm sitting here, watching Tia & Tamera trying to figure out what the lesson could possibly be.

So far... I have..

• Maybe He's trying to get me to focus on working for Him more than to better my current financial situation.  Maybe I need to look for employment that will allow me to be more Christ centered. 
• Maybe He's trying to tell me that He is going to provide for my needs.  I've been looking for a new job so that I can make more money so that Lamar and I can move to our first place.  I've been taking a lot of responsibility to do that on myself.  Maybe God is saying 'remember Philippians 4:19'...

And my God will liberally supply (fill to the full) your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

• Maybe He's just saying find a way to enjoy this time of ease.  Use it to do other things.  You're picking up more interest in your handmade goods.  Use this time as a gift.

That's all I've got.  I am feeling better after thinking of these lessons.  Please keep me in prayer while I continue pondering what lessons I can learn from these setbacks.

Oh! Happy new year :) *chuckle*

Whoa Wednesday!!

I can not believe that it is only Wednesday!  Imagine me dragging myself up the hill that is humpday.
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That's how I feel.  I've been getting a lot more hours at the studio last week and this week due to a bit of understaffage, but I'm totally not complaining. :)  I'm just suuuper tired.  I feel like right now the only thing keeping me awake is the grande peppermint mocha I had this morning.  By the way, yummy! Plus it tasted like roasted marshmallows... but maybe I was hallucinating from sleepiness... *shrug*

Anywho, this past Monday was my 28th birthday and... yeah... what else can I say about that?  I worked all day & ended up leaving the studio super late almost in tears because I missed my bday dinner with Lamar because people wanted to be ridiculous with their pictures.  But what can I do.   I had someone ask me if she could bring her own camera in, have me take pictures with it in our studio, charge her "regular", and then she will put the pictures on her computer... I wish you could see the look on my face.  Seriously lady?!?  No... THEN I had a lady who wanted to do a fourth outfit change for her 16 year old after my next TWO appointements had shown up.  How can people have so little concern for other people's time??  I dont understand.

Yesterday I worked another full day... and the craziness did not cease.  I had a guy come in and ask (with a straight face) if we sold babies.  I was so confused, but since I was tired and counting down the hours til I could clock out, I answered him without laughing. It went something like this:

Crazy Guy: Hello.  Um... I would like a son and a daughter please.
Me: What?
CG: I would like a son and a daughter.  Don't you sell babies?
Me: No. ::raises eyebrow & looks around for Ashton Kutcher::
CG: Well... I really need a son and a daughter.
Me: You should get married.
CG:I am. We already have a daughter, but I want a couple more kids.
Me.: I'm sure your wife can help you out with that.
CG: Yeah! She's in too.  We'd like a son and a daughter... and a #1.
Me: I'm sorry. We don't sell babies here. If you bring your own babies I can take pictures of them.
CG:  When would they come back?
Me: The PICTURES of the babies YOU BRING will be back on the 14th.
CG: I'm really upset that you don't sell babies, but since you were so nice I wont complain to your supervisors. I hope they pay you $30 an hour.

Then he proceeded to walk around the studio looking at the camera room and whatnot and made an appointment for 4 couples to take pictures.  He's coming in tonight.  Allegedly...

Now it's Wednesday.  So far so good.  My lunch break is over and I'm about to be totally swamped with appointments tonight, but luckily I'm not alone so the crazies shouldn't come out in full force like the last couple days.  I'll probably update this after I get off tonight.

Pray church!

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So the crazy "do you sell babies" guy turned out to be a PASTOR! WHAAAT?!?!?!

Evidently, this is the life I lead...

*shrug*

Not So Blue Monday #25- Little Reminders

Hi there! I hope your week is off to a good start :)

So... it was Christmas maybe 4 years ago, when one of my friends and I were bumming around being Walmart-rats, and you know how during the holidays, stores come out with all those pre-packaged stocking stuffer type gifts?  One of the gift displays were stainless steel bracelets with little messages engraved in them.  There were lots of messages for mothers and grandmothers, and in the back I found one with the Serenity Prayer on it :)  Here's the prayer if you're unfamiliar:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; enjoying each moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the path to peace;
Taking as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and
Supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen

Anywho, I use to always recite the short version of it (the first 3 lines) whenever I got overwhelmed or down and even wrote a prayer of my own expanding it.  So when I found this little bracelet I had to get it.  And I rarely ever take it off.

I'm writing about it today because my supervisor told me that our district trainer was going to be in the studio.  Now, the problem with that is her presence was that during my first interaction with her, I ended up having a mild panic attack because of how intense she was.  So whenever she comes in, I immediately start getting more and more anxious.  That being said, you can imagine my feelings last night and this morning...  I mean who doesn't like a little anxiety with their toothpaste?? ::rolls eyes::  But the nice thing was while I was worriedly brushing my teeth, I glanced at my wrist and thought, "these moments, right here, are why I started wearing this bracelet..."  I took a breath and prayed the prayer.

As it turned out, I got through the whole morning shift with the trainer lady and had absolutely no anxiety.  Prayer works. :)

Not So Blue Monday #24: Photog-Supastar!!!

Hey y'all! (said in my good ol' southern accent)

Today was the lovely Labor Day "holiday"... & by "holiday" I mean, a day off for everyone but me.  Luckily, I work with fun people which made the day go pleasantly.   So for this NSB Monday post, I'm going to do a quick list cuz I'm a bit tuckered out :)  Here we go!

• I got to work 10 minutes early today!  That means I got to ease into the shift instead of speed walking through the parking lot, into the store, & beelining to the studio.  I'm going to make a better effort to do this every day.  It really changes how I start the day mindset-wise.
• Lamar & Sheree (my friend from college and new roommate) came to visit me at work today & we all went to lunch together ^.^
• Sheree & I stopped in Bath & Body Works... I'm pretty sure I'll be buying candles soon >.<  Yummy yummy candles!!
• Because the evening was super busy and it was just me & one other guy working, I ended up shooting four sessions back to back! Which is why I've dubbed myself a Photog-Supastar *thumbs up*  There was a family of 4, a SCREAMING 1 year old, an 18 month old, & a 14 month old.  Gladly, the 1 yr old was the only one who cried the whole time.
• Lamar told me later that he enjoyed getting to watch me in the camera room.  I'm glad he's proud of the work I do.  He's so supportive *.*
• I got to replace my work shoes.  Now that doesn't sound like a big deal, but here is a picture of my old shoes & their replacements... 



Yep... crazy right?!?

•  Lastly, this Monday was not so blue because as I'm writing this, I'm relaxing at Lamar's with my dogs.  A great end to a pretty good day. ^.^  (look at me being all sappy)

I hope you had a fun holiday, maybe did some grilling, or visited a beach or something cool.  If you had to work, hopefully your customers/assignments were good ones.

 

Night!

Not So Blue Monday #23- I'm Alive & Being a Photographer ^.^

Hi Hi Hi!!!

I have been on serious blogger ghost mode lately and I'm sorry! I blame my absence on JC Penney...  It's stressful in that I'm-learning-new-things-and-loving-it kinda way, but I find that I forget to think of things to write about.  Like in my sucky jobs, thinking of blog subjects was what I was doing to keep from bashing my head on the desk *chuckle*.  Today I did 2 sittings alone and felt really good about the photos I shot.  (My first solo sitting was last week and I wanted to drown myself in the toilet, but I'm not going to think about it anymore, lol.)  It's a little unnerving jumping back behind the camera after being out for... years... I need to get my confidence up man!  Anyway, I was so excited after today that I treated myself to a Panera Bread brownie & a frosty from Wendy's.  Yum!

Umm... what else...

The studio is closed on Tuesdays, so tomorrow I think I'm going to take my camera out and about.  Maybe scout out some engagement photo settings since Lamar & I have yet to take any!  We're slackers... yes I know.  -_-  There are a bunch of awesome lakes in the central Florida area & I'm thinking of finding my way down to Lake Eola in downtown Orlando.  I'm actually getting excited about this prospective trip, lol. Already planning clothes and hair.  I think tomorrow is going to be a big hair day...  ^.^

Anywho!  I can't think of much else to write about... Oh! Something a little random- I recently bought a matte nail polish top coat and really like it.  It really gives my regular colors a new life.  If you haven't tried it, you should.  It's pretty cool & you can get the top coat from walmart for like $2.

That's about it for today.  Expect a photo-adventure post soon.  I hope you had a great Monday, and you week goes well!

~Peace

Ps. The sky was ablaze this evening. It was beautiful!

Not So Blue Monday #22: Scout's Honor!

So... today was a very productive Monday! ^.^

Outside of working from 3-7 at the studio, this was totally a WEDDING STUFF DAY!!!  ::happy dance:: Now, the reason I called this post "Scout's Honor" is because:

I promise not to let my blog become a wedding detail dumping ground. I will maintain (get back on the ball with) my regular posts.  I will not spam you with super long posts about what flowers we're thinking about or the shoes tried on.  Scout's Honor.

That being said, I don't think I'm going to have a consistent wedding post.  But maybe I will. *shrug*  It all depends on if I have cool things to talk about.

Today was super productive.  I set up try-on appointments at a couple shops for tomorrow and bought a couple magazines. Awesome. 

I mosied around David's Bridal after setting my appointment to look through the dresses and write down style numbers.  One of the consultants, looked at me and said, "I love a prepared bride!"  Woot! lol

I got home, showed Lamar my 'haul' and we spent a while flipping through the mags and inspecting the contents of the DB goodie bag.

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In regular Caleisha news today, like I mentioned earlier, I worked from 3pm to close at the studio.  I'm trying to master the product knowledge and sales part of the job.  They have totally been throwing me to the wolves over the last few shifts, but it's all good. It forces me to learn.  I'm just hoping they train me on the camera room soon. I'm itching to get back behind the camera ^.^  I can't wait to start seeing photos everywhere... good ol' photographer eye lol.

The work is tiring and my throat is tight by the end of a shift from all the talking.  Sometimes I realize that I'm holding my breath or breathing really shallowly.  But I'm really loving it.  Weird right?  All the stress responses that came with hating my old jobs are brushed aside when it's with a job I'm super in to.  ^.^   

Thanks Jesus... I needed this! 

Ok... it's super late now.  It's actually past 1am.  So this is yet another Not So Blue Monday on a Tuesday *shrug* who cares??  I need to rehash my theme posts.  What should I write about?  Let me know. Thanks!  Good night

Not So Blue Monday #21: Quick Life Update!

Hi!!

I just wanted to write up this quick life update. In a few hours, I'll be in training for my...

NEW JOB!

Huzzah!!!  Yep. ^.^ I got a job as a photographer at JC Penney.  So yeah, the pressure of being totally unemployed is no longer on my shoulders.  Praise God!

While I'm praising about this job, let me tell you about getting it.

The JC Penney portrait studio was one of the first places I went looking for work.  I spoke with the manager who told me that she was about to start hiring within the next few days.  So I filled out the application and returned the next day with my photography portfolio.  She was really impressed and had me sign up for the background check that same day.  I left with the expectation that I'd get the background check link emailed to me within a couple days and then a call when the studio received the check back.

I'd been checking my email every day looking for the message, but after a week of wondering where it was, I received an email saying, "We see that you haven't responded to our email.  If you're still interested in working for JC Penney, please call."  So I called and did the check.  

Maybe another week after that, I'm wondering why I haven't heard from the studio.  So I called.  No answer.  No answer at JC Penney.  The whole store!  When I finally got through I found out that the studio was closed for 2 days.  I waited and called again to check on the status but the manager wasn't there.  So I left a message for her to call me back.  The next Monday I went by the studio after not hearing back from them.  The manager had just left like 30 mins before I got there. ::rolls eyes::  I left another message.  After a few more days of not getting any call back I called again... and left another message.  

This got old, so I went up there again this past Friday and (blessings abound!) the manager was there!  Since she was in the middle of a session, I waited.  And waited. And waited for like an hour.  When she was free she came up to me and said, "Is you phone number blah blah blah?" Yeah... I said.  Then she says, "I've been calling you for a few weeks now, but I can never get through."  For real... srsly... -_-

Anyway, she hired me, had me fill out the new hire paperwork, and scheduled my training!  Boo-Yah!

Praise God for my new job!  Please pray for me as I start today (training from 3pm - 7pm).  Prayerfully, it'll be the job that I can really enjoy and feel right in.  I'm excited! ^.^

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

Follow-up to "Dreams"

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When I was young
I dreamed of being an artist

I wanted to paint
saw me covered in colors
wanted to be van gogh or maybe dali
but sometimes brushes choked on the concepts
so i painted with my hands
dipped in too many colors
swirling them together onto papers
mixing
they always looked like dreams
or reality seen from squinted eyes

i wanted to sculpt
saw me elbow deep in clay
sculpting images pulled from my eyelids
i longed to show the world something
wanted to mold these handmade mysteries
the things seen when my eyes close
sought to offer them up as tributes
to unseen muses
my hands always coated with dust
proof of my existence

i wanted to create
channel the only divine thing these mortal hands can do
i wanted to touch
something
to be
something
but somewhere along the years
this creation dream became impractical
no parent wants their daughter to be
a starving artist
they said get a degree and work hard
behind a desk
9-5
mon thru fri
weekends off
repeat
this is responsible baby
and practical honey
and adult sweetie
creation is just a hobby
it will never feed you

and i listened
muscled through 4 years of university
and graduated with a bachelors degree
still housing a spirit drawn to create

you see
dreams deferred dont shrivel
they are no raisins in the sun
these are massive planets exploding
reshaping universes when theyre done

these days the weight of those dreams
falls on me like crushing boulders
knocking wind from fleshy lungs
cracking back my folded shoulders

broken open my heart and spirit
daylight flowing in as streams
fresh air cultivating promises
baby-
dont let go of those dreams

Terribly Terrible Moment at Work

Ok... I'm currently doing a lot of deep breathing to stay calm because of this oopsie I made...

So each month I (or whoever the AP person is) have to submit payments for the previous month's sales tax return... It's to be postmarked no later than the 20th of each month and for the last 2 times I've done it we've gotten all the way up to the day scrambling to get it done in time.  It's been super stressful and I made up my mind that this month I wasn't going to be pulling my hair out come the 20th.

How would I make sure the returns were ready? I would do them a couple days before the postmark day.  Simple right. Isn't that something they teach us for time management?  Don't wait til the last minute?

Evidently, that is not the way I should be operating. Because after I worked my way through the process I was brought to my attention that all the information hadn't been put into the system yet. 

I did the return too early.  And you can't just delete it and start over...

The missing data is suppose to be entered later today, and I've read up on how to do the ammended tax return... So I know how to fix it, but I'm chewing my fingers to the bone about telling my manager about the mistake I made.  When I told him that I was processing the sales taxes, he fanned it away like 'you have two whole days to do that'... I thought I was being timely...

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to go home... I hate messing up... hate it... HATE IT... HATE IT!

Hopefully I don't get in too much trouble :-/

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Update... I told my manager. He reassured me that it can be fixed and not to worry then left his office to speak with the lady who is to give me the data. He wasn't visibly upset and I sat in his office on the brink of tears cuz I'd gotten myself so wound up about the whole situation...  I'll have the missing data within a few minutes.

I still hate messing up...

Not So Blue Monday #15

Good evening y'all!

I've been thinking about this NSBM post all day... like whether I feel like it is actually not so blue or if it's just blue.  Reason being, Lamar is leaving for FL tomorrow.  My emotions are all over the place with that reality.  Sometimes I'm excited that he's getting this awesome new opportunity to teach and sometimes I'm just sad thinking of how much I'm going to miss him.

So this is where my head was all day. Plus it rained... all... day...

Needless to say, I didn't get much accounting done in the office. I spent a few hours researching my family on ancestry.com (which was really interesting.) Ancestry.com has a 14 day free trial, and I'd recommend signing up for it if you're interested in finding out about your family history.

Finding my paternal grandparents' marriage license and my maternal grandfather's census record from 1940 was pretty awesome. 

Let's see, what else made me smile today ^.^

source: KellyConnorDesigns

I came across this tone on tumblr and I honestly think it might be my first etsy purchase. I loved the movie Fight Club. So so very awesome! I started reading the book, but stopped halfway thru.  I'm planning to pick it back up and finish it sometime soon.  Kelly Connor Designs has other cool totes, but this one was my fave.

In the middle of the little bit of work I did today, I kept thinking this:

I want to knit a scarf and this is something out of the ordinary because I NEVER want to KNIT anything... I always feel like it takes forever.  But I have some chunky needles and maybe I'll knit with 4 strands of yarn together to create a multicolor chunky knit scarf. 

I mean, fall is on the way after all. ^.^

Oh, What a Day Was Today.

Good evening!

Let me tell you that this has been quite a day. And lovely enough for me, I don't say that in the normal ragged and worn way I normally say it.

I wanted to construct some amazingly written post about it, but I feel it's better to just outright say it. 

My lovely Lamar got a teaching position! 

I'm so happy for him because he's been searching for another one for a while now and you know how awesome it is when someone is able to work at something they're great at and enjoy? That's him :) He said he got a call from the school this morning to schedule an interview, and when they found out that he was out of state, they just did the interview over the phone.  He got the offer call later on this afternoon.  ^.^ How awesome is God? 

Anyway, the school is in Florida, so we're going to be on long distance terms for a while. That makes me a little nervous because I've never truly had a long distance serious relationship and I don't know what to expect.  I want to get a job in FL so that I can move there too, to be completely honest.  And that was the plan until this happened:

I got a job offer.

A permanent job offer :) It's a part time permanent position in the enrollment office at Oakwood. The manager wants me to start within the next 2 weeks at the latest.  Now my temp position in accounting has gotten more active. They've started the annual audit, and there's so much paper pushing & number crunching that has to be done from my office... I have to talk to my accounting supervisor to see what she says.  The new job is about 6 hours less per week than I'm working now & would be less money, but I'm just hoping beyond hope that it will be something I can feel.  I'm so tired of working jobs that I dislike so immensely that I consider walking out in traffic...  Nobody needs that.

And the funny thing about this offer... I did horrible in the interview. I mean they asked me what my dreams were and I burst out crying and couldn't get it back together for the rest of the time.  When I told my dad about the offer, he laughed and said, "I told you that God's got you. He's a good friend to have."

He is a good friend to have... and I'm very thankful for Lamar's new job (even though it's presenting us with new challenges) and my new job.

So yeah, sorry that there aren't any pictures in this post & its really wordy. But sometimes you just gotta write *shrug*
~Peace~

Ramblings of a Temporary Accountant

Things that are irritating me right now:

• Accounting
• Photobucket not working properly
• Office work
• My shoulders being tense and up to my ears

Things that I'm trying to focus on because they made me smile:

• Light blue finger nails
• Lamar texting me
• Helpful accountants who understand that this is not my field
• Upcoming lunch break

It's times like now that I truly want to quit my job. If only I knew where I was suppose to be and what I was suppose to do there... Life would be so much better.  Smoother... More calm I think.  I know that learning new things and stretching one's self is suppose to be a way to cultivate happiness... but it's just not doing it for me these days.  Most days the mental stretching of trying to make sense of these accounts gives me a headache and leaves me on the verge of tears... and I can't help but to think why in the actual hell would God put me here... Maybe He knows something about me that I don't... well I know He does.  I just wish I knew what was going on... and I know I'm suppose to be faithfully following and putting my feet in the steps of God's plan as He lays them out for me.  This balancing act is so hard tho...

Not So Blue Monday #12: When You Listen, God Speaks

Hi there. [This post is very text heavy, but I needed to share it. I hope you are blessed.]

In all honesty, today was streaked with blues.  Tears were shed, anxiety was rampant,  woe was me... I suppose it all started when I woke up late this morning. I slept thru all of my alarms (I really think my phone was on silent or something) and had to rush to work.  I still got there before pretty much everybody, but that doesn't really matter.  One of my coworkers asked me how my job search was going and if I had applied for any of the open positions at the University.  So I told her I had, but didn't get any of them- which was a bummer of a conversation.  The bulk of the cruddy feelings came around 11:30am when I was updating my Project 52 list.  I realized that there are only 19 weeks left in this year. Only 19 weeks left in 2012... and I had this overwhelming rush of 'where has my life gone'... I thought about how there are so many things I'd love to be doing, so many things that evoke creativity... things I want to see, places I want to go, but I feel a bit trapped on my current chapter of life. I feel like someone is flipping the pages past me before I can fully experience them and soon the book is over... 

So this afternoon I prayed and told God that I'm having a super hard time seeing where He wants me to be or go. I told Him I'm looking and looking for direction, but I just can't see it.

After I prayed this, I heard, quietly in the back of my mind, 
"Then stop looking and listen."

So I tried. I tried to quiet my mind enough to hear whatever God wanted me to listen to. But if you've ever tried to do that, you know that as soon as you want to quiet everything down- that's when everything starts to get wound up.  My mind went on chatterbox mode and silence was stinking impossible.  I prayed my apologies to God and packed my things up to head home.

On the way home I decided to stop by Hobby Lobby to look at yarn.  When I got inside, I walked a different way around the store and passed this sign:

As soon as I saw it, I laughed and thought, 'wow... God saw the trouble I was having quieting my mind to hear Him, so He just wrote it down.' I ambled around the store for maybe 15 more minutes telling my mom about the day and the message from God when I saw this stamp:

I saw this and knew that God was just reitterating Himself... driving the point home. It was so plain.

"Caleisha, chill out. Trust Me and My plan. Your plans and perspective of your life is not what I see. Trust me and I will guide you, take care of you, and prosper you. You trust. I work."

 So I guess, all things considered, this was a Not So Blue Monday after all.

Tuesday Favorites #5

Hello there :)

Today is day two of Caleisha as the account-mutant (if you dont understand, you should watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium).  I'm still buried beneath a ton of paperwork, but I'm still enjoying the challenge of learning a new thing. 

I feel like my eyes have been reopened to Oakwood. Like I am seeing all the things I loved about this place again... they had gotten so skewed and foggy because of where I was.  I'm remembering how great it is to be able to begin the work day with a group worship, to hear someone praying with a coworker as I walk to the time clock, or to get a 'have a blessed day' goodbye on the phone.  These are the things I love most about this place. I'm so glad that my cloudiness has been shaken so they're visible again.

I'm feeling very peaceful... even in the midst of the actual chaos of being in an unfamiliar situation/job. I've found myself really appreciating the huge glass door that takes up the back wall of this office. I have a great view of the trees on the inside of OU campus.  Theyre like a constant source of calm each time I look over my shoulder.  Plus, my Melody Gardot Pandora station is so wonderful. I haven't listened to it in quite a long time, since there were so many restrictions in my old office.

On my lunch break... I'm loving this right now.

I was thinking about Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium and I really think I'm going to watch that after work today.  It is such a purposeful movie- completely full of those 'follow your heart' sentiments and 'appreciate each moment' thoughts.  My favorite quote from the movie is:

"37 seconds... We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime."

 It makes me think, when was the last time I just enjoyed 37 seconds?  Enough writing about it. I'm going to go now & enjoy the rest of my lunch break. :)

Peace.

Not So Blue Monday #9

Hi there!

I must say that this particular Monday has to be one of the best Mondays I've had in a long while.  Why? Because I am not in the office with Ms. Battles. ^.^

It feels so good. I'm currently burried under a pile of invoices in this new office, and I'm still a 'temp' employee, but I'm good.

-Later-
So my first day as a temp accountant went well. My mom got a really good laugh at the thought of me as an accountant though. But I must admit, it is an amusing thought. Well all I can do is work whatever job God sees fit to put me in and trust that He has some kinda plan. But really though... me in accounting? Really now God?? Your thoughts are higher than mine so on I go.

I've been home all afternoon/evening working on heart brooches for the shop. I'm getting tired of making them :-/ but since I didn't want to put down my yarn/hook, I decided to rework my book brooch pattern.  I was able to craft another book- smaller than the first one, but it's still to big to really be a brooch (in my opinion).  I think I'm going to try to rework it maybe once more before abandoning the brooch idea and making crochet books for something else.

Heart brooches. Soon to be listed in the etsy shop.

Crochet Mini-book. Destiny undecided :)

That's about it for my Not So Blue Monday.  I'm starting a new thing and I'm happy about it.  Change is good.

Photo-an-Hour: June 6, 2012

Hi there!
I have ...finally... decided to post my photo-an-hour that I did earlier this month.  It's the second one that I've done and I really enjoy the challenge of actually remembering to take the pictures. 

So without any more ado, here are some tidbits of what I did on Wednesday, June 6, 2012.

Enjoy ^.^

8:00AM
I started my morning off listening to Afrocubism. I ripped it to my office computer and all the album info was Japanese... surprise of the day o.O

9:00AM
Breakfast time! Apple juice and nutter butter cookies. I know, how healthy of me.

10:00AM
Checking things off my list & feeling very productive.

11:00AM
Sorting AMEX receipts... statement reconciliation time. Big woop...

12:00PM
Lunch time! My dear Lamarzapan made me a veggie chicken salad. It was awesome!

1:00PM
Admiring the beautiful day from inside my cube... This picture makes it look like I sit in utter darkness at work... that's what it feels like sometimes... *shrug*

2:00PM
Almost done with the first AMEX reconciliation! As straight forward as this task is, it takes FOR-stinkin-EVER!

3:00PM
One statement done. Two more to go...

4:00PM
In the midst of papers, receipts, and bills, I've got yarn on the brain.  I find that my fingers get fidgety for hooks and yarn these days.

5:00PM
Good-bye office!!!!! Leaving is the best part of the day! ^.^

6:00PM
Soaking up some afternoon/evening sun. A little vitamin D is a great thing :)

7:00PM
An evening nap most definitely turned into 'Good night'... I didn't realize how tired I was until I woke up confused the next morning, lol.

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So that was my day in photos. I'm looking forward to doing another one... I think I'm only going to do them on the weekends or Fridays, otherwise they could get really boring... I mean 'look it's my desk and stuff on it' for like 5 hours... what the crap is that?!?

Anyway, I hope you had a great day & do something fun with your weekend. Peace ;)

For the Cheer of It.

Hi there. Work is the pits sometimes. But at least I have the internet. This made me smile.

I found this on http://joyfultreasurehunting.blogspot.com/

This lady is one after my own dottie heart ^.^ Not only do I love the polka dots, I'm also swooning over the background fabric. It would make a great circle skirt...

I MUST go thrifting this evening... no question. I have to for my own sanity.

For the Love of...

Today, a man from another department asked me how I like working in the President's office... I told him it's nice because there's always something to do.

In all actuality, I wanted to say, "I hate my supervisor... she stresses & worries me over very small things... she's more air headed than not & cannot use a computer efficiently... I'd rather be somewhere else, but I'm here because I can do the job, it pays my bills, & leaves me some money to thrift with."

But of course I couldn't say that, lest I become unemployed... sigh. He then began talking about how he LOVES his job & he LOVES the people & he LOVES how great it is to LOVE what one does... 

Ugh... I want to be him! I want to wake up with a passion for what I do & a love for what feeds me.  I'm learning that I was totally correct as a little girl when I said I didn't want to work an office job.  I suppose my problem is that I don't want to work a job I don't love... but the things I do love aren't able to support me.

It's a bit of a pickle...

Let's do a bit of daydreaming...

If I could do anything as a job & know it would support me... I'd crochet & sew things. I'd scour thrift stores for furniture to refinish.  I'd make quilts from old fabrics or clothes.  I'd dumpster dive (figuratively) & bring new life to the bits & bobs that people threw away.  I'd have a shop and sell my wares.  One of a kind pieces of useful art.  I'd have an inspired living.  I'd be a creator, resurrector, renewer... My hands would always have fabric beneath them or paint under the nails or sore spots from way too much crocheting... My clothes would show bits of whatever fiber is being worked at the time.  I would exist in a world of rebirth. 

And then I'd teach my children to do the same.

That is what I want to do...

Not so Blue Monday #6...

Sometimes work leaves me feeling quite drained & frumpy half way through the day...

I'm having one of those "well... this is as good as it's going to get" days.  Where your hair isn't how you want it & your pants look funny & your shirt is suddenly shorter than you remember... You trip up the stairs & sweat to death in the car...  Today is a turn around & go back home kinda day. 

An "I'd rather be knitting" day even though I'm not really fond of knitting... I'd rather be doing that than being here in the office.

But... not so blue?

The Not so Blue concept keeps me looking up. I'm looking at the sky & the clouds. I'm feeling the breeze on my face (between the sweltering car sessions). I'm even blogging in the quiet after my supervisor has gone for the day (and the next 2 days!!).  It's not really so blue... and to prove it, I doodled this:

Happy Not-so-Blue Monday!  ^.^ I'm feeling better as 5:30 gets closer & closer.