Anywho, I had a thought today about my brain and depression. The first time I was seriously down logic became so clear. I mean, I could look at a sudoku puzzle, regardless of difficulty, and the numbers would fall into place. It was so odd that I remember my friends thinking I'd come up with some way of cheating the game. It was the one thing that always made sense at a time where I had to remind myself what color the sky was and make sure the ribbon hiding the burns on my wrist was tied tightly.
Recently, my mind has been processing creatively much faster. It's almost like the longer I stay down, the clearer designs become and the more I make. For instance, I've been wanting to make a top-down ribbed hat where the ribbing actually starts in the crown of the hat. The problem with that was, I couldn't figure out the mechanics or the count to make sure the ribs were evenly spaced. That was until today. The solution came like eyesignt upon waking. You know, foggy at first but then perfectly clear...
So I was thinking about the apparent link between depression and creation. I don't know what the deal is with depression and clarity or selective clarity, but I am grateful that even when I feel crumbly and trampled emotionally, the melancholy still has a silver lining. Does anyone else feel this way or find that depression can give way to awesome creations? Why is that? Can the creation be separated from the depression? Or are we artists really fated to juggle two... Let me know what you think if you like.
|Progress shot I shared on instagram <@nadiratani>|